Good Morning Sweetie

As time goes on, Grandpa and I stay busy doing “stuff” and not a day goes by that I don’t greet you and tell you “I love you”.  I have pictures of you and Daddy that remind me of how beautiful you are.  It’s chilly up here now but I like wearing sweatshirts. It feels good to be all warm and cozy.  Listening to music right now.  The song is “God will make a way where there seems to be no way....” I believe He will someday let the barrier between us come down.  Yesterday I remembered how wonderful your Daddy was with you and all the attention and respect he gave you.  He empowered you and gave you opportunities not all little girls had.  Your Daddy loved being the best “girl dad” he could be.  They are rare among men.  He protected you from harm.  

Monday I’m going to have minor surgery on my hand.  It’s called “trigger finger”.  Then on Friday I’m driving to Raleigh area to meet to meet up with Auntie Jo.  She would like to get out of the the extreme cold of Minnesota and I am delighted.  Hope it happens!  Raleigh is about 2 1/2 hours away. Lots going on there unlike my area here on the coast.  

I’ll try and find a picture of your cousins so you can see them.  Until next time I write.. I will always love you and I will always be your Grammie.

Phone Me

I almost forgot!  If you can get to a phone please call me, 703-577-5746.  Borrow a phone when you go a friends house or something. Love ya sweet pea.   Grammie

I’m always here for you, Emma

Good morning sweetie, I hope today brings joy and happiness to you.  The sun is shining and cool today and the golfers are out playing.  Not Grandpa though as he is at the store picking a few items.  He likes to shop!  We have our Christmas tree up already.  I know it’s early but I leave for Naples soon to spend the holidays with my family down there.  Dama, Jody, Žan, Taj and I will be together.   You wouldn’t recognize Žan now.  He is growing so fast.  I think he’s going to be tall.  Maybe not as tall as your daddy but tall!  Little Taj had an operation on his left ear.  He can’t hear anything out of that ear but in a few months the doctors are going to reconstruct his eardrum and maybe he’ll hear something then.  He doesn’t miss a thing though.  His right ear is working just fine.   He had a tumor in his ear and they removed it and now it’s healing.  He’s so funny.  He’s had so many doctors and nurses poking him he now thanks them after they’ve given him a shot or taken blood!  Can you imagine.  They’re surprised too.  I hope your Thanksgiving was good and delicious.  Grandpa and I went to Charlotte and stayed with Grandpa’s oldest daughter’s family.  They have twins about six months younger than you.  I look at them and guess that you are about their height and doing some of the same things.  Micah, the boy, loves to hug.  We didn’t want to go on the Ferris wheel so we both did the merry go round!  I was a little big for my horse but we rode next to one another and had fun.  I wish the two of us could have fun like that.  Just hanging out, doing stuff.  I’m 73 years old now but I can do a lot and keep up with the little ones.
You have a new cousin. His name is Tyler and he was born in October. He has two sisters, Leah and Aubrey.  I think you have 23 first cousins now.  The oldest is 20 years old and Tyler is the youngest.
Grandpa and I are going to see Bethlehem Live at a local church tonight.  I hear they have actors dressed in Roman times so it should be interesting.  Ok, Miss Emma Grace Foege, I am signing off .  Love you
To the moon and back.  Grammie

Hi Honey

My sweet Emma Grace, sometimes the pain of losing both you and your Dad is unbearable and today is one of those days.  Being told that because I am just the grandmother, I have no right to see you or talk to you. I don’t mean to make you sad but sometimes I just want to scream it from the rooftops that this so unfair, so unjust and what good does all this do.  I don’t understand it so know that my love and concern for you is unending and forever more. I will go to my grave knowing that my love and care for you was genuine and with every fiber in my body soaked with Gods love.  The pain doesn’t go away for me and I am forever changed by the cruelty I’ve experienced by your mother and her child abuser boyfriend.  Proven in the courts, Emma,  he went to jail for stealing thousands of dollars and he has beaten young children.  Yes, Scott is a disturbed man so please be careful.  May God have mercy on their souls.  I have forgiven your mother for her despicable actions involving your welfare but I do miss the fun and the closeness we had. You probably don’t even remember me now. It was now several years ago.  I can’t expect for anything to change so we continue without you.  My spirit is sad.  Dama, Jody, Žan and Taj and Grandpa Bud fill my world and just waiting for you.  If you ever come back.
Grammie

Happy Birthday Emma

My sweet Emma, you are 12 years old today and I hope you have a fabulous day.  It is Friday and you have a weekend ahead of you so enjoy yourself.
We are all still here and loving you from afar.  We don’t know the school you go to or where you live so your mother’s plans to keep us from you has succeeded.  I hope she hasn’t brainwashed you into believing that we have abandoned you and that we don’t care.
What your mother doesn’t know is that I have forgiven her for what she has done.  In my mind I have let her go, as well as Barbara and We are moving on without your physical presence in our lives but the weight of anger has lifted because I no longer have that in my heart.  That goes for your two aunts as well.  Žan and Taj remember your face because they have a photo of you in their house.  As all young children do, they continue to grow in love and care from those around them and the giggles and wonderful memories continue.  It is sad that your cousins live close by and you can’t play with them or go to events with them.
Keep your goodness and purity about you.  Do well in school.  You will grow up to be a successful advocate for children someday.  Children that can’t help themselves but have to rely on adults to make life changing decisions for them.
I’m sure you are still a considerate beautiful and smart young lady.  Do only what is right and please don’t be coerced by anybody to do anything you feel is wrong.  I trust you and love you.  You know I always tell you the truth.

As always, I am here at 703-577-5746.  Leave a message if I don’t answer. Don’t be afraid to call.
Love, Grammie

Hi Emma G! Just a few photos for you...
Maybe we can ride in grandpa's golf cart again! You can drive!!
Do you remember when Zan had a birthday at Chuck E Cheese? You were playing a driving game together :)

I hope you are happy and doing well in school. Miss you tons.

Love always,
Auntie Jo

Hi Emma Grace, Hope you are good.  I am in Naples and Grandpa is with me this time.  We’re busy visiting all the places of interest here.  The picture of Žan and Taj and I in Marco was fun but it would have been more fun with you too.  Yes, all of us, Auntie Jo, Auntie DDé, Grandpa, your cousins and me.  That would be perfect.  Call me if you read this.  703-577-5746.  

Love you my sweet girl. Grammie